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| why do i sacrifise myself for the needs of others? sometimes i feel like i've made a fool outta myself. i've lived my life trying not to build up a wall or wear a mask infront of others. yet again and again reality has prooved me wrong. people are superficial beings. sometimes i wonder why we have to be so disguised. would it be a better world if people just learn to face others with their true self? well forget that. it'll never be possible. i'm sick and tired of people backstabbing each other while pretending they are still friends for life. sick and tired of smart asses who think they can manipulate one another. sick and tired of people who makes everything about them seem so perfect but hey, they are just fucked up lil whimps trying to make their ego seem bigger than they really are. sick and tired of hatred and grudges, violence and threats.... i gotta stop or it'll just go on and on.. well those are things we have to face in this dirty world. but the thing is, i love making friends and meeting new people. i hate how time and distance will drift people apart so i'm not one of those people that will let that happen. once we are friends we will stay friends. time and distance wont do us apart. but if you play games with me i wont be that nice lil grl no more. i have an open heart, but i dont take crap from anyone. | | |
| this week has been such a fun week. first i went down to taichung to meet some old friends. none of you guys had changed! i love how we can just hang out and be stupid and not care what others think of us. i mean, really, we act like crazy monkeys when we are out together. then we went straight to kenting, the very end of taiwan. the beach was beautiful and the food was awesome. it was funny how we almost got washed away floating on the surf board. the chicken feet thing was crazy. it was hot like woahs. once you taste it, you'll start tearing up. mani and ying ate like a whole plate. you guys are maniacs. the four of us went for a ride along kenting while the other three were back in the hotel watching world cup. it was dark and there were hardly anyone on the path. at first it felt great cause literary, we OWNED the street. we met a few hilarious guys on the street and we started telling gost stories.after a while we all freaked out cause the people at the stand told us there were THINGS following us. i'll never forget those three days we've spent in kenting. ohh and my camera was being a bitch. the pictures i took got deleted for some reason i don't know and it wouldn turn back on once the pictures got deleted. i'll download pix off someone and post it up if i remember.
i went to VS with yvo, candy, ping-ping and shalin the night i got back frm kenting. geez i feel like a super woman. partying none stop. i had a great time that night too. VS was tiny, but it was fun. candy you took my first GIRL KISS. haha i love you. we met a few guys there. haha yeah again a few guys. we went to dakar (how do you spell that name? o.O) later on and played some king game. yvonne, shalin and i headed to shalin's pl afterwards and i was the only one who took a shower.
there are more to my times in taiwan but i'm to lazy to type it up. but bottom line, i'm having a good time. hope yall have an awesome summer aiite? loves
if you are one of those few people that i love unconditionally, you know who you are and you know i'd do ANYTHING for you. i'll always put you on top of everything. if we hav'nt known each other well but i like you as a person, we might not sare our hard times but i'm sure i'll sare all my happiness with you. haha yeah i've got tons. if we dont get along it's alrite at least we dont mess with each other. if i dislike you you'll never ever be part of my life. if you make me hate you.. then YOU'D BETTER START HIDING. hahaha nah i'm just playing.. i'm nice and kind and gentle i cant even hurt an ant. well, why waste time on dickheads rah? | | |
| "Many people claim such absurd things as they think they understand it well. Or act like they do. But being too careful about everything isn't always fun. Everyone's a jigsaw puzzle. Sometimes, you can't find the missing piece to complete your picture, but you can always stick with the next best thing and build from there. It's never the best choice, but not everyone have options. Your missing piece might be right in front of your eyes, but could be untouched because it might be in use by someone else."
i had a thoughtful conversation with someone i dont usually talk to, and this is what i've heard frm that person. i like how we can talk about deeper things rather than the regular "what time did you go to sleep last night". talking about relatoinship. yes i'm slow and always ended up hurting myself or feeling stupid. i can tell how a person is but i can not tell what love is when it comes to me. some people might think that i've already got the outline of how love is. but seriously, no one knows how it is thoroughly whatsoever because we are all blinded once we enter the maze. and what i know is not even one fourth of a quarter of this unpredictiable circle. but regardless of how shallow my knowledge of love is, i believe in "meant to be"s. if you believe in "meant to be"s, you'll never stop looking. and that's hella good cause frankly, what is there to loose?
one more question before i rap this thing up,
where is my prince charming? | | |
| first xanga entry in like... 9 months? o.O
so yes i started using xanga again.
xanga break is over!
here's a lousy "new" layout. i was lazy :P
i need a banner. any volunteers? :]]
loss of words. | | |
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